I am writing a book

basically what writing and publishing is: a different way to gamble

basically what writing and publishing is: a different way to gamble

there. that’s the news i was hinting at the other day. actually, let’s put it this way. i’ve got me a publisher and we signed a really real book-making contract and i have an editor and it is all actually going to happen now and the launch is feb next year and i have to have my draft in by 1 november and *GASP*

happy dog

look.

i aint gonna lie. i’ve worked through a lifetime of feels about writing already, starting with wishful thinking fed on delusions of literary somethingness (stemming from an early childhood thing for words and stories), through to procrastibatory career-building about sex, to more wishful maybes buoyed by starting a rough book and hopes of grandeur (of actually being an author that can sustain a career on writing fiction earning great fame and masses of fortunes etc etc), to now…

now i am just writing a book because there isn’t really a choice. which is far less romantic than fulfilling any lifelong ambition of Being A WriTOR, but certainly feels a lot more realistic (meh-listic?) and doable.

doable. like as in sex. what my book’s about.

ha ha.

e-hem.

that’s why i earn the low-to-medium bucks ladies and gentlemen.

i promise the book will be better.

anyWAY.

pooh watching a dragonfly

pooh is my hero

do you believe in flow? ‘flow’ is what i’ve started calling synchronicity i guess. but it’s more a state of being than singular events. to me flow is that great day-to-day timing that happens when you’re no longer fighting and pushing, but listening and sensing. it has kind of tactile dimension for me, this sensing, like a texture you can hear, like the sound of your heartbeat in your ears when you put your head to the pillow in the dead-still night.

i guess coming to the ‘book’ part of my career and life, has been a lot about this flow – especially with regards to the people who’ve almost magically appeared at all the right times.

my publisher melinda ferguson on the left and editor ester levinrad on the right #BeamUsUpScotty

my publisher melinda ferguson on the left and editor ester levinrad on the right #BeamUsUpScotty

so basically, the book, which we’re calling the dot spot and other adventures in sex and love, is going to be a non-fiction romp through dating, relationships, sex, kink etc … my 21st century sex and love manifesto sparked by all the conversations and questions we’ve had over the years.

i’m very excited about it, about the process and learning new things and the value this will hold for me and hopefully others.

i’m not going to blah blah about it too much on social media. maybe only here with my other blah blahs.

happy day pretty plums.
may all your best wishes come true.
or, at least, you get some pudding for today. because pudding is the best thing.

dotski matrotski